In case you’ve been following our family saga, I have a new update in the story. Just a quick recap if you’re just jumping on board—our home was robbed this past fall and due to many miracles along the way, we have had many of our possessions returned to us in one way or another. But I have another update for you today:
He pleaded guilty.
The arraignment was today. Apparently there was so much evidence against him that he had been advised to plead guilty. So he did. Wow.
In a way I am relieved but this entire hullabaloo has really been hard on me. My parents seem to have accepted it, but I feel like I have been left with a paranoid fear. I keep having nightmares that he or someone he knows is going to come back to my house and hurt me or my family. I’m so worried that he will do something to “punish” us because he is being punished for the crimes he committed.
I hope there is a way for me to overcome this fear because I’m tired of it. It’s exhausting feeling like I have to look over my shoulder, thinking that someone is watching us. I don’t want to be a paranoid person—it’s too mentally and emotionally draining. So that is my prayer this Christmas—that I can find some peace. I want to feel like I can trust people again and I don’t want to jump every time the doorbell rings.
I need to remind myself that what happened to our home was not an intentional act—it wasn’t personal, even though it has caused a great deal of pain all the same. I know this because so many other homes have been robbed recently. It’s not just our family, but many, and for that, I am deeply saddened. I hope that the families that have been affected by similar circumstances can recover and I hope that the people who commit these crimes can be changed—even though it might take a miracle to do it. But if there’s been anything positive from this experience, I’ve learned that miracles are entirely possible. I’m keeping the faith.
So that is where I stand today. I hope you are standing strong this season.
The Sunny Girl, Lauren Cook